Question for you…
How many times do you ask someone to put a basket of their laundry away that is sitting in the middle of your family room or how long do you wait for them to put the said basket of their laundry away before you just take the whole basket and use it to start a bon fire in your backyard?
3- 4 times asking? 3-4 weeks? Gentle reminders here and there each week for those 3-4 weeks?
Just Curious. Asking for a friend.
I had an absolutely wonderful birthday!
Here’s to the next 43!
So one of my bucket list items probably since I got married 10 years ago and my husband started taking me to all the demolition derbies, was to actually do but demolition derby. I kept saying I wanted to do it but never really thought that it would actually happen. Never thought that we would actually get a car, fix it the way it’s supposed to be, and that I would actually run it.
Well this year, at the end of the season, that all completely changed!
My husband’s/our cousins all have ran in a few of the local derbies and one of them decided that the couple that they ran in was enough for the year, but their car was still indecent shape enough to be ran and compete. So our other cousin, Dustin, reached out to my husband and said hey we got an extra car if you want if your wife wants to drive it. He mentioned it to me and I said sure!
Again still not really thinking anything was going to happen. The car would end up not running, we wouldn’t have the money for registration, something, cuz that’s normally my luck anyway. Well everything worked out, and I ran in my first demolition derby. I didn’t win, I didn’t place, but I was not the first one out and I didn’t receive any major injuries or flip my car over lol.
It all happened so quickly it was just like a blur. I remember it’s starting I backed up hit a couple people It was paused because somebody’s car flipped over, it started again I think I backed up and then I got hit and hit and hit and my car was done. Cannot shift or anything anymore.
I think next year, if I do this again, which I really kind of hope I am, I want to do a different type / class a vehicle where there is a little less in each meet. I’m hoping that maybe if there is less vehicles that I will be able to focus and actually be able to hit somebody and not just get hit and get out.
So here’s to next year!
He is risen!
We had so much fun roller skating the other night! The twins had a blast! Graci didn’t stop skating the whole night. Lijah had a lot of fun but then got distracted by the arcade games for a bit and then was done skating for the night. Mady and Lily loved it too especially spending time with their parents. Lily, after we got home, kept asking me if I had fun because she had a ton of fun.
We all can’t wait to go again!!
To my first born, my oldest son…
Looking back on our life together and seeing how I mother your youngest siblings, I feel like I have failed you… well, not failed, but just could have done better. I was so focused on myself that I missed the mark when it came to being a mom. I was so worried about making others happy- your dad, your mawmaw, your grami… that I didn’t focus on your happiness as much as I should have. I should have spent more time with YOU. Had more one-on-one time with YOU. You were a strong-willed child and at times, I didn’t know how to parent. I did the best I could with what I knew, what I was being told, and what I thought was best. I often wonder if it was right. 
I don’t know how your life would have turned out, if I had made different choices. I don’t know if it would have been better or worse? I guess that is one thing only God knows. 
I love you so much son. I so wish we were closer. I wish you would open up and share things with me. I wish you felt like you could come to me and tell me anything. I am sorry for whatever I did, or said, or acted that made you feel you couldn’t. I wish you could think of me as your best friend, because I am. I am always there for you, even if you don’t so what I think is best, I am still here for you and will support you to the best of my abilities. I know its awkward talking with me, hanging out with me… that is one area we are so much alike… if we have nothing to say… we don’t. But you know what… that is okay. I am fine with just sitting in silence with you. 
I hope one day that you will feel that you can come to me. I hope that when you are happy, sad, hurt, angry, whatever it is… you know that I am always here for you. I will always have a shoulder for you to cry on, arms to hold you close, and words to tell you that I love you.
I am so proud of the man you have become. You are stronger than you realize. You have more motivation and determination in your life right now than most people your age- or honestly than you ever have had before. I am proud of you for that. There is not a day that goes by that I think about something you said, or did and think… wow!!! that is my kid. 
I love you son!
There is never a dull moment around here.
Overthinking Mama 