I have been trying to figure out new things to post about.
I have also gone through my drafts and found a few blogs I hadn’t finished writing or posting about. So I am going to start going through them and getting them finished and posted.
Do you have any suggestion of what you would like to see me write about???
Just let me know!
It is Monday. The Monday after daylight savings… so we lost an hour of sleep.
I overslept this morning.
Which maybe was a good thing.
I got a knock on my door this morning that woke me up. I thought it was grandma coming but it was the police. My first thought was uh… all my dogs are in the house- wonder what I did. But what came out of his mouth was nothing I was prepared to hear.
A neighbor had taken his life during the early morning.
I have known the neighbor for 13years now. We have had our ups and downs and butted heads at times but overall was a great neighbor.
I am still in disbelief. I just keep praying for the family.
May God bring a peace to their family as they are going through this difficult time.
My doctor’s office called to confirm my appointment while I was at work. I share an office with another female but our office is pretty much open to the rest of the store so everyone can hear most of what it said. During the confirmation call- the receptionist asked me if I wanted to know if I was coming in for a PAP or a physical. And I whispered PAP hoping that no one heard me. After I got off the phone, I started thinking, why the secrecy with going to the doctor for a regular checkup? Why do women whisper or leave the room when they talk about it? So here I am. Talking about my PAP.
It was last Thursday. I killed two birds with one stone and had it done during my regular yearly checkup. I also had a breast exam while I was there. I had my nurse practitioner (doc), the medical assistant and also a medical student. As I was legs up in the stirrups the NP was checking my IUD string, the student couldn’t see the string so I asked if they would like my phone flashlight to be able to see better. They laughed and said it was a good idea. They had some on their glasses and probably should start using them.
The nurse practitioner had to show the student how to do a breast exam on someone else. So I had the NP on one boob and the student on the other. NO LUMPS!!
Everything went great!! Great visit. Great doc. Great Staff. Good down there for another year.
This week I have come to realize:
Hope you enjoyed the realizations for this week!
If you would like to contribute to next weeks post- just hit the contact me tab.
Like my Realization Friday posts. I want to do a grateful Monday post. I want to start the week off on a positive note. So each week I am going to try and gather things that I am grateful for along with things that others are grateful for and do a post on Mondays. So if there is anything you are grateful for- send me an email and I can add to my post next week!
This week I am Most Grateful for:
Happy Friday!! TGIF!!
Thank you everyone, who contributed to this weeks post! Keep those realizations coming in!
This week I’ve come to realize:
~ The devil definitely knows how to pull me away from where I need to/should be.
~ In a lot of ways- I am in this alone.
~ I need to accept that I can not live life as fully as I want with out meds.
~ The profound benefit of thinking positive.
~ There are seriously some strange people in this world.
~ My dad was full of truth: “It takes all kinds to make the world go round”.
~ Some days I have a very hard time concentrating.
~ That I really miss blogging.
As we get ready to say goodbye to 2018 and hello to 2019 it makes us think what we want to change for the upcoming year. Eat better? Go to church? Lose weight? Find your soul mate? Read the bible? Be a better wife, daughter, child, friend, person.
I have goals for myself. Get to the gym. Spend more time with family. Spend more time in the word and with God. As much as I want these goals, sadly I know that come February/March- I will probably be right back in the same place I am in now. And everyone around me will say “yup. I knew they were just those New Year, New Me Goals.”.
I don’t want that. I don’t want just those new years resolution goals. I don’t want to be one of those people that come January 1st I am at the gym rearing to be healthy and then come March, I would rather sleep in or go to bed early.
I want to be that person who changes her life. I don’t want the goals to be just because its new years. I want them to be to better myself.
How do you differentiate between true life changes and just those yearly “new years resolutions”?
I am struggling with that right now. In my heart, I know myself and now that I will slack. But I want more. I want to be a better me.
I need to be held accountable. I need something more.
How do you make your goals reality and not just a pin up on your dream board?
Its 130am and I am still awake. I know tomorrow I will regret this, but for now, I have too much to do. And I probably should be doing all those things instead of sitting here typing up a blog post, but honestly, it has been too long and I do my best thinking/typing in the odd times when I should really be doing something else.
I just finished my paper for my social work class. I am hoping it gets a decent grade. I love writing papers and I am loving the class but there is just so much going on right now in life that my mindset is not where it needs to bed. I can not wait for the end of this semester, which saddens me a little bit because I love school.
My best friend got married over the weekend so that took up most of the weekend and time leading up to the weekend. I have slacked on laundry and keeping my house clean. So when I am off here, that is what I will be doing. Fun things. You know you are an adult when you stay up till 3am not drinking and partying but doing laundry and getting the house cleaned up mainly because you can’t do it any other time because everyone is awake!
I feel bad for my family because I have been in such a horrible mood lately. I just feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. I just wish I had more help at home. If everyone would just pick up after themselves or if they see something where it shouldn’t be, pick it up and put it where it goes. The whole mindset of the house is that- I didn’t do it, so why should I correct it and it seems like no matter what I do or say short of flipping out on everyone- nothing changes!!
Well, the little buzzer on my computer just went off telling me that it’s about to die- so I guess that is my cue to get off here and get things done. I am so looking forward to waking up to a clean house tomorrow- sadly it’s not because little surprise fairies came and cleaned it!
Blessings N Love
Overthinking Mama
My morning-
She was mad at me this morning because I made her get up and go to school.
She wouldn’t even give me a side glance at her. Complete back to mom.
I told her I loved her as she got out of the car and that I hoped she had a good day. No response from her… it hurts my heart, but I know she’s young and doesn’t understand just yet. She will one day though.
Overthinking Mama 