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I am most confident when…
I am most confident when I am doing something that I love, something that I know what I am doing. I am most confident when I am being praised.
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I usually feel like quitting when…
I usually feel like quitting when I am overtired, which is quite often. I feel like quitting when I don’t feel like I am making a difference or that there is no point in doing what I am doing. I feel like quitting when I feel like I am failing at whatever it is that I am trying to do.
My friend Deaquelynn on Instagram did this challenge in March on Instagram and I loved the idea. So I asked for her permission to do this on my blog and she graciously said yes. Please when you have a chance, checkout all that she has to offer!
Do I accept myself as I am? Why or why not?
Honestly, some days I do accept myself just as I am. Overall though, I do not. I am always wanting to improve myself in one or away or another. I am always changing my hair. Trying to learn more. Find new passions. Just changing myself overall and bettering myself.
My friend Deaquelynn on Instagram did this challenge in March on Instagram and I loved the idea. So I asked for her permission to do this on my blog and she graciously said yes. Please when you have a chance, checkout all that she has to offer!
Who am I living for and why?
I am living every day to please my God. I am living for my children to make sure they have a good childhood, have confidence, and to know our Lord and have a relationship with Him. I live for my husband to be the best wife I can be, to love him like Jesus.
My friend Deaquelynn on Instagram did this challenge in March on Instagram and I loved the idea. So I asked for her permission to do this on my blog and she graciously said yes. Please when you have a chance, checkout all that she has to offer!
When I think about love I feel:
I think about Jesus. I think about how he sacrificed His own life in the most painful and degrading way so that I can have a chance to be saved and be with my Father in eternity.
I think about my children. I think about my parents and of course, I think about my husband.
So I meant to start this on April 1st. But life is a little different lately and between having to fight my kids for electronics, internet cutting in and out, and trying to figure out how to do this new “homeschool” life… I haven’t had the time, motivation or brain power to think.
My friend Deaquelynn on Instagram did this challenge in March on Instagram and I loved the idea. So I asked for her permission to do this on my blog and she graciously said yes. Please when you have a chance, checkout all that she has to offer!
So without further adieu…
When I look in the mirror I see:
I see someone who is aging quickly. Someone who can do better. I see someone who disappoints people every day. But I also see someone who is not going to give up. Someone who has God with her and is a sinner Saved by His grace. Someone who will be better tomorrow.
So I did get laid off. As of last week by hours were cut and this week pretty much am not needed at all. So I am home with my kids trying not to lose my mind.
Monday- honestly I had a class of wine by 430. The kids were just extra clingy. They all wanted to be on top of me. They all wanted to talk to me at the same time. They all want me to answer their questions at the same time. My brain just didn’t have the power.
Tuesday- I woke up and first thing I did was put some worship music on and went for a walk. Alone. That was the best thing that I could have done. It got my head into a better place than it was the day before. Even with no internet- I still was able to manage to make it through the day.
Today- I woke up- had some coffee- some time with God and went for a walk with the kids. It was really nice to be outside with them. It was nice to see and “meet” some of our neighbors. I really wish I could do this forever.
I know times are uncertain, and many of us don’t know what tomorrow will bring or how we will get bills paid, but maybe- we should see this as a gift from God. A gift to just stop our crazy hectic life and just be. Just enjoy each other. Just enjoy life. Just be.
As we were walking, I was thinking to myself that normally at that time, we all would be at work or in school. And even if it was a day off, I never would have gone for a walk outside when it was that chilly out ( I think its only like maybe 40deg today). I would have stayed my happy but in the house and stayed warm. But because I can’t just leave the house whenever I want to, because I am not leaving the house for hours and hours on end- I am enjoying the simple times of getting out of the house and being with my family. I am so thankful for this time.
I know God has a plan through all of this and everything will turn out alright. No matter the end result, even if its the worst thing I could possibly think of right now, it will be ok. I am saved by my Father’s Grace.
With the Corona Virus going around and so many things shutting down this is a time of uncertainty.
You don’t know day to day what else will be shut down. Many people are laid off from work and don’t know when they will be going back. They don’t know how they are going to be able to pay their bills or feed their families.
One certainty during this time- If our Father. His Love. His Salvation. His Promise.
I still am having to work. Our company is considered essential because gas fireplaces are a source of heat. I have mixed feelings. I am glad that I still have a job but then I am scared because I am more at risk being around people and my techs are even more at risk because they are going in and out of many homes during the day.
Today is my late day. I work 2 other jobs and a couple days a week I go into those jobs in the am and then my reg. job in the afternoon. I am working from home this morning and my kids are in exceptionally wonderful moods this morning <- I am being very sarcastic. They are arguing over everything possible. Who gets to sit next to me. Who gets to play with the dogs. Who gets to hold the remote. Who gets to sit on the couch. They all need to go back to school!! lol.
Anyway- I need to go tend to my pack of wolves and listening to them scream is making my mind turn to mush.
Prayers for all of you. If you have anything specific you would like prayers for, please feel free to comment or use the contact me form.
The other night I woke up around 3am. I couldn’t fall back asleep. I felt God telling me to get up and go read His Word. I was so comfy, I didn’t want to get out of bed (mind you this is Feb in Ohio and its freezing). So I made a deal in my head, I would stay in bed but look up His Word on my phone and read it that.
I read a few different devotionals, some scripture and then I felt Him telling to go to my laptop and write. My brain was swirling with all kinda of ideas to write about. What did I do?? I layed there in bed. I made a deal- If I didn’t fall asleep in 10 mins, I would get up. Then it was in 15mins… needless to say, I never got up and now I have no idea what it was that I wanted to write about.
Why couldn’t I just listen? Why did I let my selfish desires get the best of me? I have been kicking myself ever since. How many times in life do I have to make the wrong choice and not listen to God before I start doing what God is asking?
I know the devil is using my constant tiredness to keep me from God and honestly I let him. I give him that control. I need to take that control back. I am struggling with that in every aspect of my life. Not letting my tiredness be the control.
What are you struggling with? What are you doing to overcome it?
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From top to bottom… this is my hair and how it’s changed in a little over a year.
The top picture is from March of 2018. The rest are from 2019 and the last 2 are from just a few days ago.
Right now is the shortest my hair has ever been… and I love it!! Its so easy to do and take care of!!
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